It’s painful to love someone from afar
Not near enough to adore them not away enough to ignore them
To know all random things they like but none that they love
To know nothing will change for them whether you exist or not
To see your heart crumble knowing they will never trust you
with their secrets, their woes, their pain, their worries.
To see that look on their faces; sad, lost, empty
And not understand what thoughts were the cause.
To be afraid that you might never be closer to their heart
never would be able to make them laugh harder, cry harder,
make them feel safer warmer just by being there.
To be afraid that you will turn into nothing but a distant memory
the one they will give up on trying to remember
To realize your love will be always be unvoiced unrequited
And yet hide that heartache with a smile
cause that’s how you were told love should be
Quite, muffled, mute, voiceless, excruciating
An empty and hollow struggle.
To find happiness in what gives them joy
To find bliss in their smile
To yearn for love yet never claim it
To never lose sight of that half ignited passion and half a piece of love
And fade away from their heart slowly, smoothly into the mist of time